🍄Shanin Blake🍄

Happy late Mothers Day to all the mamas out there. I was taking a social media break during, but I wanted to send my love & share a really personal story. I was 18 years old when I had my daughter. I remember living in my van bc I couldn’t afford daycare or rent and being so broke at one point I couldn’t afford baby clothes for juniper and so I went in a second hand baby clothing store and tried stealing them by hiding them in her baby carrier and when I walked out of the store the beeper went off. My heart dropped. A woman who worked there stopped me and looked in my purse and saw there was nothing so she said hold on while I get my manager. She went to the back. My heart was racing and I was holding back my tears as I realized how stupid that decision was. I was so desperate it. There was a woman shopping next to me who saw what had happened. I started emptying out the baby clothes and putting them back on the shelf as fast as I could. The shopping lady saw everything and just stared at me in shock. We locked eyes and I looked at her about to cry. By the time the worker came back I had emptied all the baby clothes and so when the checked the carrier it was empty so they let me go. The woman shopping never said a word. I left the store and starting balling my eyes out immediately. So many feelings came over me. Feeling like giving up, like what was the point of life I can’t even afford to buy clothes for my baby,

a year ago